Sometimes, we need to hit the reset button.
For the past 6 months or so, I've been feeling a big change coming into my life. But I had no sense of what it was. Not knowing what needed to change. Not knowing if it was a physical change like moving or a job shift or if it was something deep inside me that was changing.
The unknown is a VERY uncomfortable place for us humans.
This is the place where fear grows, where our imagination takes over and comes up with all sorts of horrific and painful possibilities. We imagine the worst. . . loss of our loved ones, our homes, our income, etc.
Why does the mere thought of change invoke such fear, even when our own experiences may demonstrate and prove that the changes we've made in our lives overall turned out for the better?
How many times have we set aside dreams because the process was not what we expected? How many times did we stop doing what we really wanted to do because unforeseen obstacles left us reeling and disoriented or others told us it would fail?
How many times did we choose something because it gave us a sense of stability and security rather than choosing the thing that fed our hearts and souls that carried some risk?
Oh, the insanity.
Fear is what holds us back, not risk.
After a weekend retreat that opened my heart and filled my soul, I am hitting the reset button.
Things that do not resonate with me are being set aside. I am decluttering home and heart. I am letting go of what I no longer need and no longer serves me. I am speaking my truth and honoring my needs. Things that need to be put on pause are being put on pause. It is a process that I now realize will happen over and over again for the rest of my life, and there are always challenges in change.
But I can already feel the shift from the heaviness of not knowing to the lightness of knowing that everything really is all right now and always will be.
One little gem I came home with from my weekend as a result of deep meditation and journey work was: "Just be who you are. Stop reaching. You're already there."
That was a show-stopper for me. I've become my own biggest obstacle in not understanding that the things that I love to do are in fact, the work I was born to do. The people I resonate with are the ones who belong in my life. The issues that I'm passionate about are for me to be involved in. The classes I feel compelled to teach are the ones I should teach.
Everything else is not for me, and that's okay.
As I come into alignment with my true self, I heal myself. As I heal myself, I heal the world. We are all connected, and every bit we do to make ourselves healthy and whole ripples out into everything else.
Change is afoot, and I welcome this amazing new creation. I don't know what the next stage of my life looks like right now, but I've come to understand that the "not knowing" is simply because I haven't chosen it yet. I don't have to choose what the rest of my life will become, and I shouldn't. I will be a different person tomorrow based on what happens today.
I've pressed reset, and am now in the pause of that pressing.
The one change I've committed to is to let my heart be the master and my brain be the servant, as it was intended to be. I've let my mind take the reigns for most of my life, but I've found it to be a poor leader and it is now being replaced.
Journey on, my friends, and know that you have the strength, courage, and wisdom to be the change you wish to be in the world...
Love and Light,