This morning I played the waiting game, as the tech from the electric company was scheduled sometime between "8am and noon" to update our gas meter. These kinds of service calls can be frustrating, as it always seems they show up at the end of the 4-hour window rather than the beginning, leaving us feeling "stuck" and not in control.
This time I decided to switch up my perspective and be grateful for the pause. I have had the morning dedicated to being at home and getting a few things done here. I've enjoyed the leisurely sipping of my coffee and taking my time doing some mundane things, as well as a little quiet time for myself, which gave me the chance to reflect a bit.
Today brought the gift of seeing how important it is to press the pause button to rest, reflect, and recharge. This is a part of self-care that we need to honor, especially after a time of extreme busy-ness. Every day should have a little space in it for us to step back, take stock of where we are and how we feel, and then decide if we need to adjust our sails in any way. Without this self-care space, we're just moving along, blowing in whatever direction the wind sends us rather than choosing which way we want to go, which can leave us frustrated or apathetic at times.
Perhaps it's simply aging into my mid-40's that has made me start to appreciate how quickly life goes by and is forcing me to look at where I am and what I want to do yet.
Recognition of your own mortality has a way of grabbing your attention, and pausing for a few moments to see if you're heading in the direction you want to go can shed some light on things that are in your way or let you see if you're off-course. I'd like to live the rest of my life choosing consciously what I want to do and be.
I'm trimming my sails...
I've come to recognize that I don't want to make time or give energy to things that don't fill me with joy. If it's something that needs to be done but is difficult to be joyful about like getting the car repaired, I can switch my perspective and turn to gratitude, giving thanks for having a reliable auto repair service rather than feel inconvenienced and upset.
Volunteer work must be something that I love, and my expended energy and time doing that work has to be effective and have a positive impact.
I am striving for relationships that are based in love and integrity. The people in my life that I hold close are amazing souls who love me as I am, receive my love for them in return, and understand the importance of living from our hearts and being true to ourselves. Those who I spend most of my time with will help keep me honest and call my ass out in a loving way when I'm not walking my talk. And I love them for it. A wise friend once told me, "True friends help me to be the person I aspire to be", and she is so right.
My "job" has to be what I love to do and am passionate about to my very core. And it's totally a work-in-progress as I learn to trust my belief that we are meant to simply just be who we are without any pretenses or holding back. We all have something important to give that the
greater world needs. And every single one of our individual gifts and talents is
needed, even if they seem weird and unlike anyone else's. When we don't share them, the world is
missing a very important piece of the puzzle.
Trying to be something that I'm not doesn't serve me or the greater good. I've worked at jobs simply for the paycheck, and frankly, no one is happy doing that. And there were many jobs I was good at, but there were times I dropped my gifts into the wrong environment. That's no good either.
The beautiful thing about this world is that we have each day - each moment really - to start over if we need to adjust our sails to head in the direction we want to go or change the speed. I fully believe that we are simply meant to live as who we truly are, doing what we love. That is our very nature and will bring us back to balance when we feel something is missing from our lives or we feel out of place.
We are not meant to simply exist, moving from one day to the next without our conscious choosing. If we don't like where we are, we can change it. We might need to start with a change in our perspective first before we can make bigger changes, but we are always in control of our thoughts, beliefs, and intentions.
We are creators and we are amazing, each and every one of us. Even on our "bad days", when we're learning a lesson we need so we can return to our heart and who we really are, we are innovative and resilient beings who can create something better each moment as we absorb the lessons of life.
I am so grateful for all the gifts of the past which have brought me to the present moment. I'm going to grab that self-care space every day, trim my sails, and glide forward into the life I want. I will falter, get tangled in the rigging by the things that scare me, and may fall overboard when I get distracted or caught up in a storm. And it's all ok. I'll have to just laugh at myself, practice forgiveness, and release perfectionism. Then I'll get back on deck and at the helm again, maybe with a little help from those loving people in my life.
Who's with me?